introspection

Why am I doing this? Why? I think I have to get used to just spitting things out. There is a term, hyper vigilance. I think I am guilty of it. I get this queasy feeling thinking that stuff that's personal is out there. Maybe I'm wasting my time. Maybe I'm selfish. Maybe I'm foolish. I don't have a real purpose, an intention that involves growth or accomplishment. If it doesn't take away from growth or accomplishment, maybe I should be OK with that. I hate losing things, and I hate wasting my time. Everything should have a purpose, and this doesn't.